I just wna say , thanks for caring about me & entertain my shit attitude :D

U're the best , boyf :D

This is for me .

I'm just so angry . By the people around me .

SOME , not all .

Esp typical impatient Singaporeans & mum .

You guys always see me w a smile .

I always try to cheer up .

But inside my heart , i'm in a breakdown situation .

Crying in the inside .

If I say that i'm fine , it either means i'm fine FOR A MOMENT or i'm just PRETENDING .

After a while , the pain will be growing and growing .

I don't know how my dad hold the pain that much after all these years .

But I know , how is he feeling .

I know he doesn't know that i'm there for him .

Its cause idk how to express my feelings or show to a particular male .

Its just so hard .

Its been 7 years , i'm crying in the inside .

But I choose to keep it in the inside and show .

But there's one point of time , i was in a total breakdown .

When I just reached the Parade Square , I hold on my tears .

Cause I didn't want boyf to get worried .

When boyf has gone to his class , I sat alone and started to cry .

Its not that I want to cry but I just can't hold my tears .

Then , Atiqah came . Comfort me & called boyf .

I just feel wrong .

Its the same breakdown as when my late grandmother passed away .

I can't control my feelings for a few days and weeks .

I'm emotional .

Things just happen so fast .

I just don't wna lose another special and great person in my life .

I guess this is part of the challenges in life .

Cepatlahhh , biler nak gy shisha lagi ?

Zaza , cpt balik .

Jadi kite sume ley shisha together lagi .

K bai .